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heyyy everyone. its been fuckin forever.
well shit i moved to the middle of nowhere to be with mark.. and i dont have the internet out there.
things have been super i supose... or maybe not. but whatever. shit happends. what do you do when your losing the one your supost to marry. yay for being engaged, right. hmm well other than all that. i came back to this side of the mountains to celebrate my 21st got in the car with someone who had been drinking got into a horrible accident and snapped my bone beyond in half so im over here and with internet untill it heals. so everyone should get ahold of me and hang out because that would be neeto.
i hope all of you are doing amazing. take care all!
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[29 Jul 2007|03:03pm] |
DUDE soooo i live fuckin in nowhereville... its insane. me and mark are engaged now. were doing great.. but he has to leave for work for a month so im going to be there alone.... which will suck because i really dont know anyone. ummm i hope that all of you are great. i cant really get on much or on myspace. no internet....
love all of you
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[26 Mar 2007|06:46pm] |
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soooo its been a long ass time since ive updated. that whole cheeting thing was wayy fake. i went on the web site to see how it ran and yeah soooo hes in the clear.
we're doing really well actually. he has a job now and is doing good, only thing is he live way far away... which bring up my next point. i might be leaving western wa soon. and if that is the case. there is going to be a BIG ass party ebfore i go... heh, good excuse for a party. passed all of my tests so its official, im a hair stylist and such now!!! one of the biggest accomplishments ive had. so basically im doing really good other than my grandma having a stroke. thats been affecting me a lot, shes like a secound mom.
anyhow i hope you all are doing well.
here are some pics just for the hell of it.
( friends and my boyfriend )
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[09 Feb 2007|10:26pm] |
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please someone tell what to do.. what i should do. i need advise. so please.
that guy i was talking about. well ever since hes been gone ive missed him a lot. so i started to write this song for him. well when i went to email the little part of it i had to him. i thought about how sometime if you dont check your email for a while it deletes its self. so i checked his to see if it was gone before i email it to him, so that way he would forsure get it. well it was stil working... and you know i didnt even think about it. you know all that shit mail you get along with real mail. i was going to delete that for him. i didnt even think anything was going on and i seriously (if you dontn believe me you can ask anyone i know) wasnt like trying to snoop and see if he was doing anything because i thought if he were to do that it would be over myspace. hes not a computer writing person. infact ive had to make every profile for him. well when i went to do that i saw all these chick email saying im interested in you and i want to meet you and shit all from this truebeginings website. some love sight. at first i just got really mad, but then when i talked to my close friend christy she said well you should make sure thats what it is and not that he jsut signed up and was just being dumb... so i went on there. and found all these messages he had sent to girls.. like your profile made me smile. and that he was looking for a girl 18-21 out in okanogan... where his parents live and he goes to every once in a while. he wrote all of this 6 days after our anavesery. and we werent in a fight. not that i know of. i think he did it while he was out visiting his parents for that one weekend. and i cant talk to him.. see whats going on because hes in jail for that dui, which isnt bad. i dont think hes like a bad person for that... but this. god i feel like everything was just taken from me. like i cant even hold myself up... but i dont want to lose him. thats what i need to know about. i mean if he didnt go out and see those girls and it was just some stupid thing and i regrets it do you think if i take him back.. if he takes me back. would he do it again.
now this is the guy that the only other girl hes loved was one that ended up cheeting on him with his friends and his brother. me and christy though... of ALL the people we know like everyone, he would be the last to cheet. and technically thats not completely cheeting. but in a way it give me no hope for men. every guy ive met that i thought i knew would never cheet.... this. this makes it hard for me to believe that.
i dont know. how bad do you think this is? is it something i need to worry about? or is it something that was a stupid past mistake?
i just want to know what i can do i guess. nothing probebly untill he gets a chance to call me. see if he confesses first. then tell him i know the truth.
god if youve had someone cheet. how the hell do you get over it?
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[29 Dec 2006|03:47pm] |
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sooooo i need help figuring out with to do with my hair.
please help...
( what to do..? )
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[25 Oct 2006|03:39am] |
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so i finally graduated beauty college. its only been like a week but things have alread gone kinda downhill. hmm. anyhow looking for a salon to work in. i know i can get a job soon. but yeah. heh. well shit its been a while since ive put anything up on this thing. i should ut pictures up, ive gone blonde since i wrote on this thing last. its crazy ass shit. but yeah i hope all of you are doing well. i guess ill write more later. take care all
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[13 Mar 2006|04:42pm] |
]. Name one person who is on your mind right now:
well umm katelyn, bff!, and kyle and umm yeah thats about it actually
[2]. Do you think your life has been good so far?
im not dead, so i cant complain - in the words of ed
[3]. Where is the last place you went?
ellensberg
[4]. Who is the last person that called you?
katelyn
[5]. Who is the last person you texted?
bff
[6]. What's the name of your first true love?
umm.. chad.
[7]. Whos your best friend of the opposite sex?
charlie chuck and kyle
[8]. What's the longest relationship you've ever been in?
have no clue
[9]. Who was your last kiss?
you know who you are
[10]. Ever cheated on anyone?
umm nope
[11]. Been cheated on?
i believe so
[12]. Have you ever thought that you were in love?
Yeah
[13]. Ever been caught having sex?
heh yeah
[14]. Have you ever slept with someone on the first date?
nope
[15]. Do you look like your mom or dad?
umm my pa.. but me and my mom do sometimes get along
[16] Have any siblings?
2 bros
[17]. Do you smile often?
i love smiling
[18]. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
hmm.. yeah sure
[19]. Could you be a vegetarian?
umm that would be so impossible
[20]. Are you sentimental?
by far to much so
[24]. Ever thought someone was "the one"?
ehh
[25]. What is your middle name?
nicole
[26]. Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity):
creativity...love then beauty
[27]. Do you wish on stars?
heh yeah
[28]. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
Nope
[29]. What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten?
ehh i dont know.. bad food.
[30]. Would you kill someone?
it depends on the situation
[31]. When did you last cry?
a while ago maybe
[33]. If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play you?
shit nukka. umm probebly.. yeah i dont know
[34]. Have you ever met anyone famous?
i have
[35]. Do you like your handwriting?
ehh
[37]. Who are you jealous of?
no comment
[38]. What is your favorite lunchmeat?
turkey or chicken
[39]. Do you have any bad habits?
i do
[40]. Are you a friendly person?
yes
[44]. Do you regret anything?
Not really
[45]. Do you love someone?
as friends, yes.
other than that no.
[46]. Do they love you back?
i would hope so.
and if someone loves me in another way i dont know about it
[47]. If you could be with anyone this very second, who would you be with?
katelyn. kyle. charlie chuck. bff! dani. breanna. umm.. chloe. jennay. jessie evan and jessica.. emory...? and cory.
maybe someone else. people who want to be hanging out with me.
[48]. If you could go back in time, what would you do?
dont know
[49]. What's the one thing someone has given you that you will never let go?
heh i dont let go of anything really. im a damn packrat that is wayy to sentimental
[50]. If you could choose one topic to talk about all day, what topic would you choose?
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[03 Mar 2006|10:26pm] |
so basically i feel like i have lost my best friend. i love her and miss her. last one to go.. i dont have any other best friends at this point ::i have some super good ones like jessica and such, but its not the same:: umm yeah thats about it.
umm so i met this person. and i think im stating the like him. it scares me. i dont like it at all.
heh.
life is amazing. the shit it throughs your way. im just taking it and running with it this time. not stopping to wait and let it take me over. no this time im just going to keep on going, walk away, keep my head up. if i didnt just take it and leave i would be putting energy into nothing.
loveyaalllots <3333
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[02 Mar 2006|07:58pm] |
hmm so some of you havent seen my new hair..
so heres some pics.
umm sorry i havent been leaving comments. i need to work on that.
been very bussy.
kinda stressed.
love ya all lots
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[08 Feb 2006|08:35pm] |
so theres a lot that has happend since i last updated.... but i dont even know where to begin. so just leav a message if your curious.
on another note. here are some grea random pictures you guys should check out.
enjoy!!!!
( one of the happiest moments in my life... i <3 the beach... )
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[18 Jan 2006|06:22am] |
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so thing between me and that guy are over now. "the love of his life is back in town" which is cool. im happy for him.
so i have red hair now, i didnt plan on it. i like it though, its different.
my closest guy friend is back. his gf broke up with him, ehh i know it would go like this but im cool with that. as i told everybody when it happend that when he came back i would take him back and forgive whatever happend. thats just how it be yo. heh, yeah i hope that thing between us can mend completely.
umm everyone we were hanging out with kinda broke apart but im not really apart of that. i just hope they all can fix things. and the people without homes can find homes. thats were i come in, i come barring food for the homies.
i saw chlois last night. it was awesome.... umm yeah. i dont know. iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii dont know. i have a lot of thoughts but ill speek of those later on its too earlie.
heres some pictures.
( red heads have the most fun )
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[02 Jan 2006|11:03am] |
so these go out to my darling katelyn.
for fun times to come and the one place we love.
( off to seattle we go )
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so theres been a lot thats happend since i last updated. i have began to re-hang out with a group of friends that have broughten back into my life the true meaning of "free-spirited". both me and katelyn needed this. and i think this is the only thing i really have going for me at this point. school is good though ive been really sick, my white blood cell count is very high so they know somethings wrong but dont know what ::this is probebly because i went to urgent care, yeah they are so nice but they didnt even know how to pronounce the name of my stomach problem let alone know what it was, then they told me that i might have mono or thyroid cancer, yeahhh whatever:: also i have become more chill since school. for my old group, they dont even know the meaning of the word drama untill they fully understnad how the girls in gene juarez work. in a way ive found its helped me. i dont join in on conversations protaining to other people and i dont let things get to me that other girls do. i love everyone. and yes it is hard and yes it does suclude me BUT i dont want to be apart of it. and it keeps me neautral with everyone because they know i dont haev a problem. as for work. ehh sad times there. im afraid i made the people i like the most there terribly mad at me because i couldnt come in for two shift because of the hospital visit and one day when my sickness got extremely bad. but hey what can you do. well here are some pics to tide you guys over.. i have 3 or 4 more sets of pictures i have yet to put up.. im just lazy and these pictures make me happy. some are random and some are from the 70s going away party chuck ::silas:: and jesse had.
( sailor tattoos )
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[06 Dec 2005|05:39pm] |
so i aloped last night and got married in the sherries mens bathroom. it was basically amazing. and to a very gorgious guy ::pretty much the hottest guy ive ever been with (that was a long time ago, nothing ever came up between up it was just guy that had a thing for a girl and a girl that had a crush on a guy) yeah basically i dated an x model or whatever, though he does have a problem with telling overexagerated stories:: anyhow i had a lot of fun. and no im not going back into the dating guys-ness ::it was a just for fun marraige because he basically is in love with me:: i dont have much trust for men after what happend and all. but oh well. im a married woman now.
i went to seattle yesterday with katelyn and we went to pike place. i completely realized how much i actually love seattle. we took some pretty amazing pictures.
oh and i got to put makeup on kyle ::mccoy, the x from a long time ago:: it was pretty fun. theres many a pictures from that. then katelyn did my makeup. which was also pretty amazing. yeah i was pretty drunk too. ill post the pictures in a bit.
today was my first day of school. it was alright i because friends with a few people and met a few people that are friends with chloe and know kyle and that whole group, one of them gave me the dirtiest face when i mentioned kyles name then went on about how she hated him. ehh oh well. hes still a cool guy. i almost fell alseep like literally 20 times. it was bad. not even downing 3 cups of coffee would help. hmm. yeah thats about it.
im doing good for the most part. i desided im not going to try to be friends with kyle because one, i dont think he would want a friendship or even treat it like one and two, i dont want to be like his x chelsea when i call were all his friends are like "its the x!" dun dun dun type thing and come up with some weird way of saying my name like they did to her.
bleh. yup yup. take care all, mad love yo gangstars
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ehh im doing alright now days. me and katelyn and jason have been hanging out in large ammounts the last few days, which has helped a lot. i came to the conclusion that yes maybe i was to quick to jump to conclusions but if that was the case i dont think ide be the only one trying to solve things. either way i do want a friendship because he is a pretty kick ass guy when it all comes down to it. hopefully that will be an option without aquardness on his behalf.
other than that im way wayy overwhelmed right now. i have orientation at gene juarez today. i start tuesday, which is insane. a year strait of 9 hours days working ::which in my case, half of which will be doubled up because im getting 360 hours advancement::
i think the best part about it is that it will give me a focus and take my mind off of things, the only problem is that im still sick ::over stressing from the situation:: and it doesnt seem to be getting better and i dont want ot go into this being sick because i think that it will affect how i function during school. hmmm. we'll see.
and now i dont have a car. damn snow killed the underneeth part of it. umm yeah i dont know. its early and i am very tierd.
take care all go have fun in the snow before its all gone!!!
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Instructions: List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.
yeah im really bad at this because i listen to so much different kindas of music and never really listen to paticual songs over and over, i mainly do that with cd's... and ive never done tagging things like this before. i was just bored this time around.
1. pink floyd - Wish you were here
2. system of a down - Hypnotize, Violent pornography
3. all songs by tool
4. all songs by s static lullaby
5. umm some songs on the radio
6. seether - photograph
7. jennys mixed cd
tags:![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) foxy_fires my_anonymity itselectricity first_rule lizzcore jchristine walk_into_walls
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[21 Nov 2005|05:05pm] |
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so here i go...
not to long ago a friend of mine posted an entry in which she wrote to all the people who she had something to say to, not naming names, an idea which i respected. i find the idea helpful to me because there are so many people i could say so much to that wont listen ::making it pointless:: also i dont want to be the cause drama when its not directly nesessary. and other people its just easier to wrtie to. a lot of these are people who dont have lj but some that do.
( all that i have to say to you: )
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[14 Nov 2005|08:10pm] |
wow i just realized that i just lost my best friend to his new gf. heh, funny how things work out. yeah i do admit i acted kinda angry at him the last time i talked to him and he told me he couldnt see me on my bday because he HAD to spend the whole night with his gf. i just looked at his myspace me took off all the pics of me and him and everything he wrote talking about how good of friends we are... and ya know the irony of all this is that in the past i would have given up any of my past bfs for him ::my friends come first, its always been that way, and he KNOWS it:: yet this is what i get in return.
a while back he wrote me a thing talking about he wante dto old me back, the one that used to hang out with him every damn day ::then work came and such:: well i tried to go back, i called him all the damn time all of last month, i tryed hanging out as much as i could... he never tried calling me though. in fact, its like he doesnt even care to.
im happy for him dont get me worng, i dont think hes ever been in love like this. and im so exited hes fond somebody. and i can understand him wanting to hang out with her all the time. but its like he completely erased me from his life because he doesnt want to ruin things with her. i met her once and she was so pissed off that she wouldnt even talk to me. i know he wouldnt tell me if it was because of me.. but i kinda know, ya know.
sooo godbye chuck, hopefully one day youll see and try to remake an old friendship
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its my b-day motha fuckers!!! hahah yeah. tonight will be amazing <333
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pictures from the halloween party last night. they are amazing so you should definately check them out!!!
( OUR lady marmalade )
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